July 9, 2020

Brave the Storm

Brave the Storm
"And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about."

- Haruki Murakami

I have this group of soul sisters that I belong to. I started the group years ago, when I went off Facebook but still wanted to remain connected with certain people. The idea is that it is a group of like-minded women interested in personal self-development and spirituality. We try to keep it positive and be supportive of one another. For the most part, I do feel we succeed.

So many of these women I have walked a journey with. I have taught many of them, counseled some, drunk margaritas late into the night with many. There are stories to tell.

Right now in this time of a pandemic and global uncertainty and stress, I am aware of so many of them and other friends that I have, that are battling in some way and this deeply upsets me. I am a caretaker of souls it would seem. I feel protective, maternal and even nurturing towards this group of women. Their pain feels like mine. I want the best for them and somehow feel invested in their happiness and wellbeing. Perhaps this is not very healthy, but it is how I feel

I read today how women have been the worst effected by the pandemic. How we are the ones to carry the burden and try and hold our partners and children together during these uncertain times. It is the mothers that have been juggling work and homeschooling, boosting their family’s immune systems and trying to remain calm and strong. Not that I am taking anything away from the men, the pandemic has taken its toll on them too. Many fathers are no longer able to provide, in these volatile times and that must be scary as well as de-moralizing.

Today more businesses announced job cuts. Anxiety and depression is normal. Fear is normal. This is an uncertain time for all of us. So much is beyond our control and there are all kinds of unforeseen challenges.

I know so many of you are battling in some form or another right now. You are not alone. It’s ok to not feel yourself right now, to feel out of sorts or angry or depressed. It’s ok to be scared. I really feel now is not the time for seeking answers, but rather to be still and listen. Let’s support each other through this. Deep breaths. Remember your truth. There is a lesson here for all of us, we must be strong, open and willing to learn.

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